My last post might have shocked a few of you and left you thinking: She is seeing someone? And she is in love?? So, I decided that I'd add a "prequel" to this new chapter and love story. Here is where the prequel will start, let me get you set...
I'd been separated and divorced for some time - healed my head through counseling and my heart through life coaching. During that time I realized I didn't need a relationship, but did want one. So, to test the dating waters I joined an online dating app. I'm still not sure how much I loved (still don't know if I'd recommend it) the idea of online dating, but the "how do you meet people" question was real. At first it was a task just to learn how to talk to guys again and express expectations/standards for whom you are looking for. Eventually, some of the conversations resulted with in-person meetings -- always in public and with a friend knowing details of the meeting. It is HARD to uncover the layers with these dates and unfortunately several liked to talk and good talk, but not the walk. After a short relationship with a good talker, I realized that I needed to take a break from it all and re-evaluate. My need vs want with relationships and my desire to put God first - were all getting off balance. In fact, it was during that time of re-evaluation that "positioned for purpose" came to life. Dating was one of many areas that I needed to position myself to allow the Lord to work and use for His purpose. For me it meant I had to let go fully, trust His timing and rest in Him. I met Scott 30-ish years ago when my best friend and then roommate took me to her house and there I met her older brother. I'll never forget his eyes, they caught my attention that day. But I was just her "little friend" to him then (he does remember my smile however). As Scott came back into mind and we began to message - I spent a lot of time in prayer and there were some times of tearful talks with my God over feelings I was beginning to have - laying them at His feet. I knew I had to be purposeful, prayerful and patient -- this was something incredibly different and special. We spent time messaging and eventually connected in-person for coffee. That coffee time sparked nightly phone conversations and lots more dates. I knew I'd fallen in love with him before the coffee time with how he showed a love for the Lord that I knew was personal and special. But each and every date just kept drawing us closer and deeper into loving each other. Feelings toward each other that filled us with contentment and peace and times of joy and laughter. The next chapter was unfolding with this new love!
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